In the months prior to this decision, because I needed to make money and I needed insurance, I stayed in a job that had begun as perfect but ended up toxic. Interesting choices. What motivated that choice? Fear? Perhaps. I has been a couple of years of health issues which could have been serious, and I am not used to dealing with them. I have been blessed with relatively good health and physical strength. For a couple of years I have experienced just the opposite. Fear colors so many things. The choice to retire actually came from outside. The program was not going to be fully refunded. It was as if Spirit said to me..." ok, you won't listen to all the little signs that you need to retire, so I will have to provide you with a big one." So it happened,
I have not for one second doubted the decision however, I have dealt with fear that creeps around from time to time. I dismiss it as soon as I feel it, but it has been there. Why do I succumb to those tingly fingers up and down my spine...fear? That is my mission for a few weeks to relax into my time and to dismiss fear permanently. If not now, when? That is the question. I can live comfortable for a while and I am determined to do just that. Not only comfortably but thriving, really living and finding joy and satisfaction in each day! Savoring.
